November 2010
29 posts
I probably should never be involved in politics.
I wrote the following during my senior year of high school, March 13, 2003. That is all.
If I were President…
Now that I know exactly what the job entails in the Constitution and in practice (thanks to government class), the thought isn’t as innocent as before! Actually, the position isn’t as powerful as it may seem. Its constitutional basis is extremely limited, but the...
Epistle to Diognetus →
Shared with me by a friend. He directed me particularly to Chapter 5, which was indeed pretty awesome.
Reading something like this made it so clear to me how much more I enjoy this as opposed to modern day devotionals. Which, generally, I’m finding… just irk me. And a lot of the modern stuff perpetuates the “gospel of wealth” (as he stated) and so I totally agree. That...
October 2010
38 posts
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more rambling.
Time advances almost blindly, outside of my realm of control or capability. Why born at this time in history? Why here? Whose lives am I meant to impact? What am I meant to create? What love can I share with the world at large?
How did the word I just spoke affect those who heard? How might my thought shape the mind of someone in the vicinity? And thus I choose each word purposefully and...
soothing sounds.
I am listening to Bond. Oh, how I love classical crossover music. Currently, the song “Kismet”. That word means “fate”, if I remember correctly. So beautiful.
Ok, carry on.
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stream of consciousness.
Be authentic.
You may have doubts at times. Know it is okay. Ask questions if you need to.
Give people a second chance. You may need one yourself eventually.
Smile at everyone you encounter. They may not expect it.
Hesitate to look at people solely as part of an organization or group. Recognize the individual involved.
Be very cautious in declaring victory at any time. Humility is a virtue.
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Sacrifice.
Sacrifice:
n., the surrender or destruction of something prized or desirable for the sake of something considered as having a higher or more pressing claim.
v., to surrender or give up, or permit injury or disadvantage to, for the sake of something else.
Perhaps far more than we realize, life is oftentimes about sacrifice.
We sacrifice part of ourselves for so much! In each relationship:...
Profound.
Stealing this from a friend’s profile. Won’t lie. But so true.
To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting. e. e. cummings
Last Day on Earth
Charlotte Martin’s songwriting is amazing. Period. Subtlety, grace, and loveliness.
Once again you know my little world is caving in I can’t struggle anymore, my love I know our time is over I’m crawling and I’m clinging with no arms again I face you in my sin I pray you let me in If it’s the last day on earth It doesn’t matter what I say to you anymore...
My college graduation address!
Why not share this? It’s not half bad. If only I slowed down when I actually delivered the speech… you could barely hear me speak!
Greetings family, friends, faculty, and fellow graduates, First of all, congratulations on this tremendous success! It took quite a lot of hard work and perseverance to get here—we finally made it! Indeed, a good fraction of these past years were...
“The desire of love is to give. The desire of lust is to take.”
– (via abbybattin)
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Part of another journal entry
Dated: Sat. February, 28, 2004
Oh my! It’s been an exceptionally long time since I’ve written. V. bad sign. That’s not like me at all. Well, I suppose it has something to do with utter bipolarity I’ve been experiencing. Not to mention, having been harassed by a girl who does not know or understand me at all. I love people think I should feel just peachy all the time and...
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So overwhelmed.
I cannot fathom why all the people who have walked through my life have. I am not exaggerating when I say I have some sort of love in my heart for every single one of them. Even those people who I have offended, those who have hurt me, those who may have been there for only a brief moment in time. Every single one has affected me. As a result, there have been many smiles, laughter, tears of joy,...
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Optimism and realism can co-exist.
Realism is recognizing how things are. Optimism then consists of the knowledge and hope that you can change or improve them. And being able to see that there is still some beauty in the world.
Don’t mistake any of my optimism for naïveté. I simply have to focus on what’s good and pure and lovely more so than what brings me down. And with that outlook… I have a chance to do...
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I seemed to have a thing for extended metaphors.
Another journal entry from my past of interest. No preface needed, just typing it. From January 29th, 2004. Gee, I fancied myself so clever.
Well, this is quite the delayed appendage. I’ve determined my love life (or lack thereof) is like a Monopoly board. I try to make my way around the board, checking out the available properties. Of course, the most attractive are already taken—we...
Wisdom from Spongebob??
I guess certain people I know are on to something. Because the following was uttered by Spongebob. Wow.
Love is handing someone a gun and letting it point to your head, and believing [s]he won’t pull the trigger.
Yup, sounds about right.
The Stranger
Wow, I read that book so long ago. I think I read it twice, too. Now I’m recognizing more of its significance. I just discovered the book report I wrote on it senior year of high school. I have to say… reflecting where I was faith-wise at that time in my life… it probably caused me to look for purpose.
Let’s share an excerpt from this report.
Meursault is a strange man. He seems to be and feels...
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A sabbatical of sorts
Nothing that you have not given away will ever be really yours. - C. S. Lewis
For the past few weeks, I’ve been attending an Episcopal church. This is new to me. It’s liturgical, more akin to something a bit more structured (which I must say I’m becoming a fan of). Anyway, been looking to do a bit more personal study, gain some insight, refresh myself.
Addressed something...
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Maturity...
So I wrote this on July 13, 2003 (one of the few entries I dated). Not entirely sure who the subject of it was… but I probably could guess. It’s interesting…
What’s maturity? By your definition through habitual behavior, I can only guess you consider it being too serious for your own good. You only say things that appear overtly intelligent as to go over everyone...
La de da.
Balancing optimism and joy with sobering reality. How on earth is that accomplished? So much to enjoy and savor in this world, yet simultaneously, when standing face to face with the awareness that there’s a ton of awful crap going on, what does one do? Certainly not turn a blind eye. And the way I see it, in the vastness of this planet and the expanse of humanity, how could we ever only...
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quick question.
So how on earth did the “entertainment industry” as we know it come about? When I think about it, it seems just crazy… elevating people to superstar/idol status because of their individual talents. And while I do believe everyone has their personal talents, and they should be used, honed, practiced, and shared with others, how did it become what it is now? Sheer insanity. We look...
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Cure
Want some more poetry? Of course you do.
Am I perfectly justified in seeking vindication? Is it healthy to despise you this way? Could you take the time to answer these questions?
I don’t expect much, just a straightforward response The curiosity is slowing softening me I was supposed to hold on to thick skin And ignore the fact that you were ignoring me
I need not depend on your approval...
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An Algebraic Disaster
So… I used to write some freeform poetry back in the day… (i.e., in high school).
It certainly was interesting. Because I love math, I wanted to write a poem with a bunch of math references… and I was quite pleased with the results. So I guess I wrote this 7 years ago or more, now I’m sharing it with you. Its title is the title of this post.
If I am rejected just a few...
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Beyond touched
I cannot fully express what I’m feeling right now.
To have received a call from lovely 16-year-old girl simply because she thought of me since she passed by the street I live on… (well, lived on, I assume it was my parents).
It’s a little miracle like that to remind me I am never really alone at all. To remind me that God put me where I needed to be to make a difference in...
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Hmm.
I told my friend Jill this:
Experiencing the fullness of my insanity is like looking into the sun directly. You just don’t do it. It blinds you.
And that is how I see myself.
The most irrational patriotism in the universe →
You have to take a moment to stop to look at the absurdities of life and nature. :P Click through and read!
A reading recommendation.
Possibly one of my favorite books of all time is The Little Prince. Forget for a second that it is considered a children’s book… it’s contains such immense wisdom. Far more than most so-called “children’s books”. It’s rather brief, so it’s an easy read, but TOTALLY worthwhile. And I own this book in French, though I have not attempted to read it in...
A glimpse into the past.
I am such a bundle of nerves. I am at odds with myself so much of the time, I am amazed to survive another day! Moving on…
I thought it would be most entertaining to post something from an old journal, that would allow you to look even further into my psyche. Oh hooray! Now you can also descend into my madness.
The journal I found is from 2004. I was at the height of my bitterness that...
Art Isn't Supposed to Be Safe →
I can tell I’ll be reading more articles from this magazine… enjoy.
A woman uses her intelligence to find reasons to support her intuition.
- G. K. Chesterton
Yet more proof I need to read Chesterton. Probably will start with Orthodoxy. So much I want to read! But as my dad wisely wrote on a page in a book he gave me as a gift: “Discovery and adventure go together. They are accomplished in the world and in the mind!”
Indeed.
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The beginning of something interesting...
Between all the thoughts that run through my mind, the things that entertain and/or amuse me, the interest I have in fashion, the desire I have to sing at all times… I figured now was as good a time as any to start a blog.
I rarely indulge in completely frivolous conversation. I like to have a sense of humor about me, but chances are if you find yourself talking with me, something of depth...
